Well, today is mine!! I picked this picture because it is the epitome of a time when I didn’t have a care in the world! I was taken care of by a ‘village’ that loved me with everything they had. I had no worries. I had no stress. Life was good!! Now, here I am! So, because I didn’t have these kind of days before 1/2017, I’m going to blame it on that! This process has shown me that even today, the smallest trigger can send me into a spiral and when that happens, look out!! To most, this chain of events will seem silly. Heck, if I were reading it, I would probably think it was silly too but I’m not reading it, I am living it and it is anything but silly. It began last night when we decided to watch Virunga. It went down from there. As I watched the gorilla named Kaboko struggle and ultimately die, I started to ‘lose my shit’. I was literally sobbing over the death of this beautiful animal. I was up until 4 am just crying. I kept seeing him in my mind and felt such a deep amount of sadness. I finally went to sleep but shortly after opening my eyes, I was once again a blubbering idiot over Kaboko. In addition to this, as I was watching this documentary, I noticed a member of a private recipe exchange group was being disrespected by another member so I tried to educate (yeah, I am still trying to be a teacher) the person as to why the comment was incorrect. Most other FB members actually thanked me for my comment that indeed taught the group something. That was until another member jumped on me. I continued my path of education but she was not having it so I stated I was not going to argue with her. She then had a couple other members tell her to back off and at that point, she took the easy route and blocked me – not a loss at all in my world. The person who originally started all this actually apologized to me. I thanked her and just said that I felt the original poster was the person who deserved the apology. Woke up today to find the admins jumped all over this and selectively deleted parts of my postings. I reread the rules of the group and I never broke any of them. In reality, the other two posters that I tried to educate were the only ones who actually broke any rules. Oh well, I left the group. A couple other stupid things got caught up in my brain so I once again f myself crying again. And the thing that sent me over the edge…..it’s St Joseph’s Day. The day I would have called my Dad to wish him a Happy Feast Day. I always sent him a card until Hallmark decided to stop selling them (guess they needed space for a more important event like “Hope you hang nail heals quickly” but anyway………Not only can I make that annual call, I cannot talk through what I am going through with the guy that was always there to be my voice of reason. See, I told you it was going to appear silly and tomorrow is a new day with the opportunity for a new beginning but until then, my head is killing me, my heart is broken, and no matter how much I cry, I just cannot run out of tears!! Today, I need to repeat over and over the following quote – Never regret anything that has happened in your life. It cannot be changed, undone, or forgotten so take it as a life lesson and move on.